DISCLAIMER. I would like to thank the newspapers that have covered the Walter Masocha story as they have helped raise awareness of abuse happening in some churches which has been going unreported. However, I have not given any national newspapers the right to waiver my anonymity as a victim of Walter Masocha. This is a personal blog and its within my legal rights to express myself here. According to the law my identity is protected in the media. At this stage, I do not wish to be named in any Scottish or English National Papers. Any newspapers that will name me/ or have already done so have done this without my permission or consent. Any newspapers which have published my picture have done so without my consent. I do not wish to have my pictures published in any Scottish or English newspapers. I ask the media , which I greatly respect for their support in this case in covering the story to respect my right to anonymity as a victim and not name me in any newspapers unless I sign a consent form and agree to do so. I am not ready to be named and I want to use the protection I am granted by law at this time. Thank you.

Saturday, 22 August 2015

Josh Duggar, Trapped In A Cult

On Friday I watched  a very sobering and moving new Chanel 5 documentary called Trapped In A Cult, telling of frightening stories of people affected by cults. One woman's story was almost identical to mine. The documentary made me realize that at times as human beings, we can help create our own cults even within the four walls of our own homes. As I was pondering on this whole matter after the documentary I watched, lo and behold one of my once favorite Christian family was making the headlines, but this time it was their son Josh Duggar on CNN. For my readers who don't know who Josh Duggar is, Josh is a Christian Reality TV star, the firstborn son of American Christian couple Michelle and Jim Bob Daggar who have 19 children, and are practically famous for it.  I  first knew about this family about 7 years ago when they were endorsing the film Fireproof, which is one of my favorite films of all time, and my favorite actor Kirk Cameron was also endorsing their show. The Duggar family caught my attention and since then I became a huge fan. An extraordinary family it is, none of the 19 children are adopted, all of them were given birth to by one woman, Michelle Daggar. I became fascinated with the family, and their reality show on TLC, 19 Kids and Counting, was always on my sky recorder. I admired how they raised their children, strict christian values. I remember showing my ex husband their website, how they home schooled their children, how they didn't watch TV, strict courtship rules, no kissing before marriage etc etc, I even prayed to God that I wanted to raise my children like that, I remember even watching TV became a no no at some point,  whilst I was praying earnestly that God would open a way for me to homeschool my children. Oh the Duggar family was just a picture of Christian perfection, how parents are supposed to raise a super duper jolly godly family.

Josh Daggar Scandal 

However today, in a diabolic twist of the christian fairy tale that was almost too good to be true, the Duggar's firstborn son Josh is making headlines on CNN, BBC, Daily Mail, the blogsphere and just about anywhere you find breaking news. The headlines are nothing to do with him being a family values advocate that he has been well known for, but rather everything that opposes that. The picture perfect christian family has now fallen from grace in a spectecular way. Walter Masocha kinda fall from grace. Its epic. Josh Duggar has been outed as one of the 32 million people, yes 32 million who were using the cheating website Ashley Madison. For those who dont know Ashely Madison, its a website that is designed soley for the purpose of cheating on your spouse, because apparently, life is too short, you might as well have an affair and have fun. Yeah I know right. But whats more shocking to me is not the website itself or what it stands for, but that it had 32 million married people secretly using its services faithfully, and one of them to be exposed is married father of four Josh Duggar, of all people! He listed his interests on the site as Conventional sex, experimenting with sex toys, one night stands and receiving foreplay among many other fantasies, I'm sure his parents who practically raised him in a box, literally, have cried tears of blood over these revelations, and are probably perplexed as to how their precious godly son even knew about these things, for they were never mentioned in the box. Hmmm Josh has recently issued a statement after the Ashley Madison scandal, and part of it went something like this...

"I have been the biggest hypocrite ever. While espousing faith and family values, I have secretly over the last several years been viewing pornography on the internet and this became a secret addiction and I became unfaithful to my wife

Josh Duggar the devout Christian who campaigned around America for family values and biblical principals, speaking against divorce, infidelity other "sins" has himself been cheating on his wife and literally lying to the whole world, especially to thousands of Christians who looked up to him and saw him as a role model of their faith. And now the non-believers are having a party, because Josh has brought the name of Christ into shame and disrepute. I was listening to Todd Friel last night, and he was saying Josh was not truly born again, hence he committed these shameful sins, so Josh needs salvation. Some Christians are saying he needs church discipline, which could all be true, the guy needs help, and I think at this stage anything, any help will do. I however look at this rather differently, having come out of a "Christian Cult" Agape, I now understand that in life there are strict things people do and attribute them to God or the bible, when in fact they are human traditions , which in reality have nothing to do with God or the bible. I believe Josh Daggar is a victim of a CULT, the perpetrators being his own parents. Their extreme beliefs are big contributing factors to the self disruptive behavior of Josh Duggar. I believe his unusual and strict upbringing played a huge part in the man Josh is today.

Here are some of the rules that Josh Duggar and his siblings were subjected to growing up...despite none of them not being in the bible...

  • no going to the beach because it was a sinful place
  • no any form of dancing because it stimulates sensuality 
  • the girls only wear dresses, no pants
  • no TV
  • no alcohol
  • no romantic novels
  • no kissing, or hugging, or spending time alone before marriage
This young man was raised in isolation, with strict "christian rules" that in reality has nothing to do with the bible or God. One thing I have learnt about cults is they are toxic, one way or the other, it will only take one day, and everything will explode. We are human beings, and God himself created us to live in this world, not in a cupboard in your house. You can not shelter your children from the world and keep them in little bubbles, its cultic and dangarous and abusive. Not one saint in the bible ever attempted to live outside the world, so I don't understand why people do it using the bible. Joseph, a man mightily used by God lived in Egypt, even wore Egyptian clothing, I'm sure Ephriam and Menasah played with other Egyptian boys and if there was television those days Joseph would not have had a hissy fit had his boys watched a bit of Egyptian cartoons. Esther is another God fearing woman who lived in a sinful world, but she was still used by God in Persia. Jesus Christ himself lived a full life mixing with sinful people of this world. If there was television in His day, I really don't think  Jesus would have created a commandment against it.  Christians need to relax and allow themselves to live in the world, and the world includes the beach, its not a sin to go there wearing a bikini, its life. How was Josh supposed to learn about life when he was basically sheltered from it. Had Josh Daggar been allowed to live in the world and be a normal child, I'm sure we would not be watching him on CNN today.

My heart bleeds for the other 18 children who are still trapped in the Duggar Cult. I hope they release their poor children from this cult and allow them to live in the real world and experience life for themselves. Of course we have to be careful what we expose our children to, for the days are evil and wickedness, but we have to remember He giveth more grace. Doing what Michelle and Jim Bob did to me is a lack of faith and trust in God that He is more powerful thän the god of this world, which triggered the extremism. Had they trusted God with their children, they would have even maybe allowed Josh to go to school where he could have been exposed to life and learnt a thing or two from life experiences. School in itself is not evil, though the system is corrupted, but God is still on the throne watching over our children in school.

Having come out of a "Christian Cult" that almost destroyed my life was I not strong enough, I have learnt that the bible is a very powerful book, and anyone can use it to do evil or to do good. Many evil atrocities have been committed using the bible, we can even use the book to create our own monsters whilst running away from the "evil" world. I believe the monster within can be more evil. Josh Daggar is a monster created by his own over zealous extremist parents. I believe Josh needs to break free from the believes he was raised in and read the bible for himself and get to know whom God says He is for himself. The first step to breaking free from mental slavery is knowing is knowing who you are, and I believe right now Josh Daggar hasn't got a clue. Thats why on Ashely Madison he used a picture of another guy a DJ called Mathew McCarthy who has now lost a few gigs because of the scandal and hes considering suing Josh for defamation. Parents please do not trap your children in CULTS. 

In Other News 

Talking about family values and principles. I love animals so much and so does my family, sometimes for me its hard to eat meat...lol. Animals seem to be drawn to me too, Sometimes animals just walk or fly towards me, like this beautiful cow she just came to me, sooo cute. Well they say a dog is a man's best friend. My 11 year old daughter has wanted a puppy for years now, and we are thinking about adding another baby to our ever growing family...after everything she has endured and being such a brave and resilient young damsel, maybe a cute little puppy for her is not such a bad idea...

Tuesday, 18 August 2015

Jean, who ordained you into ministry?

Ever since I started sharing inspirational messages on You Tube and Facebook and Speaking at Churches sharing my story, some readers of my blog have criticized me from doing such as they claim I am not ordained to do so. They keep asking me by what authority do I do what I'm doing, uploading videos on You Tube and being a speaker, who ordained me they ask? They say I warned people that Walter Masocha was a self ordained Prophet, so now I am doing the same, though with all the respect I have not claimed to see the face of God, his lips and all, neither have I claimed to be a Prophetess. I am not warning people that anyone who criticizes me will suffer the wrath of God as Walter Masocha did, neither am I asking people for money to buy first class tickets to New York. I am not asking my followers to buy my children waitrose food, neither am I demanding my followers fast and pray for me to get their blessings, and I definitely, I mean most definitely will not be walking on anyone's jackets. Up to date I have never gained a penny from my story, the day of Walter Masocha being found guilty I switched off my phone, because every reporter wanted my story, some offering to pay me, but I refused, because its always been about the truth, and being true to myself. I am just being me, Jean doing what I'm passionate about, even my critics are welcome to partake, and they will not be cursed for doing so. One of my favorite blog readers Critical wrote this post...its unedited, spelling, grammar errors and all, but I did not want to dilute the extent of the opposition I face... 

From Critical,  my favorite reader of the blog...

"Jean, no one can argue about your ordeal. Your dream to start a ministry will come to pass (even Walter's dream for a ministry still came to pass). There was a question you did not answer; who ordained you into ministry???. Not that it matters much in this day and age where self proclaimed bishops, pastors, evangelists, apostles etc are on the prowl like crazed dogs. I do not judge how you came up with this idea but what I can say to you is that here on your blog, you have a platform to horn your leadership skills through engaging with your audience in an enlightening manner. When a question is posed, yours is not to say you will do what you want whether one likes it or not.. That's not proper. You are like the biblical city built on the hill, everyone sees and watches you more than ever and you have to be like what Jesus said. I am not trying to be a preacher nor am I one. I just think you should engage your audience with tact and intellect. Some of the audience here are 20x as educated or can bless your ministry in different ways, don't think the critisism you are getting is from Walters fans, but from people who one day may follow you as you once did to Walter. Rationality is a difficult thing; using biblical verses and quotes is a common trick that was first practised by the devil himself on Jesus. Every church preaches the bible, Walter was no different and you will also be preaching from the same book. I hear about Isralites and Ninevah and the rest of it. That's not the point. I do not want to get into the depths of what, when and how did the bible came to being as that's out of context. The Christian of today uses intuition and describes it as the Holy Spirit. Every imagination or personal dream is taken as Devine inspiration. One thing that's apparent to me is that Jean likes the limelight and fame. That's not a bad thing at all as all footballers, musicians etc also like fame. Even Pastors like fame too.... But it's what we do with the fame that defines us. ... My opinion is that Jean has seen how powerful church leaders can be and how rewarding ministry can be. She also likes that. Is she wrong?? No. For the world is altogether evil. However, using God's name to further whatever interests is a delicate matter, you must be certain of it as no one other than God himself will take you to task. To use examples of Joyce Mayer etc shows you are trying to match yourself with what's already out there. Joyce Mayer herself is not free from scandal but that's not the point. All the famous biblical characters are not known because they formed ministries or became pastors; they are known simply for their stories without ever preaching about them..... My point is, Jean's story has and will continue to inspire other victims out there and it's a good thing...does it mean Jean has to become a Minister to preach it??? Certainly not....unless she answers the question; Who ordained you into ministry???" 

Response to Critical, from Believe my truthful blog reader....

The word "ordain" comes from the Greek word "diatassō" which means to "appoint". In general as well as Biblical terms theword "minister " comes from the Greek word "diakoneō" which means to be a Servant.When the two words are combined, "ordained minister " - we get the definition"to appoint one to serve, or appointed servant".

IS JEAN APPOINTED TO SERVE? Who can appoint someone to serve, Man or God or Both??

An ordained minister is a believer who have been appointed by a group of believers to act as a servant to humanity on behalf of God.

Is Jean Ordained?? Answer is YES 

[An ordained minister is a believer who have been appointed by a Group of believers to act as a servant to humanity on behalf of God.]

An ordained Minister is a BELIEVER...

Is Jean a Believer? Yes, Jean is a Believer of the Word of God. She proclaims the Word which is Jesus Christ.

Is Jean appointed by a group of Believers? Answer is Yes. Lot of people including my family see Jean as an Inspiration and we listen to her words. My family is a Group of Believers, so We have appointed her already without her making an effort. I guess most people including you who visits this Blog blesses Her and sometimes feel encouraged by her life story. In heart, You have appointed her. I also believe most women out there look up to her for encouragement, That's appointing her as a Leader.

How do we appoint a President for the Nation? Do we vote? If yes, Then Jean is already appointed to be our Leader.

And Since Her deeds shows the Mighty works of Christ, she is already ordained by the Believers on the Blog, Facebook, Family, Neighbors et al.

“Ordain” is an act of consecration. Did God anoint and ordain?

“ Aaron’s sacred garments will belong to his descendants so that they can be anointed and ordained in them. ” ( Ex 29:29 ). This means Aarons descendants were Ordained by just wearing the Garment? Keep thinking...


WHAT IS ANOINTING: It is joy, passion, power, glory, confidence, boldness an authority. Anointing is the power to preach, sing, witness, testify and do spiritual warfare.These characteristics shows Jean isnt attention seeker but anointed. Jean keep doing your Thing okay? The Hebrew word for anointing is mishḥa which comes from the root word anoint and means “an unction (the act); by implication a consecratory gift.”

The Old Testament generally speaks of anointing in the sense of a special setting apart for an office or function.

Men and women of God have operated in the anointing throughout history. While being eaten by lions, they sang; while being blindfolded and waiting for bullets to fire through their entire bodies, they prayed in peace; and as Stephen was being stoned, he looked up to heaven and asked God, “Lord, lay not this sin to their charge” (Acts 7:60). These saints of God paid the ultimate price for their commitment to the cause of the anointing. Jean suffered in the Hands of Evil Mosocha, His Ex Husband and even close Relations because of the anointing on her. Anointing is peace. It comes suddenly, and it takes time. It is meek, and it is strong.

Some of these descriptions sound almost like an oxymoron. Yet when the anointing comes, it creates a divine paradox—just as it did at the beginning of creation. Light exposes darkness(Jean Exposed Evil man Mosocha).

Truth confronts lies. Life confronts death. Everything that can be shaken is removed so the things that can’t be shaken will remain. Jean's Ministeries Remains because the Foundation is Christ not Voodoo.

Everyone has the capacity to be anointed. God is no respecter of persons. The anointing is for every believer—every man, woman, boy and girl.It is for the young. It is for the old. It is for the rich, and it is for the poor. It is for the one who is near and the one who is far off. The anointing is for you, your children, your children’s children and “as many as the Lord our God will call” (Acts 2:39)

If everyone can be anointed, Then God can even use You to ordain Jean. She doesnt have to put on YOU TUBE who Ordained her. Even Her Kids can ordain her since they can be anointed to do that. If one more believer somewhere has blessed Jean for her Ministry, she's Already ORDAINED. 

Hi Jean, will send you my family pictures so you tell the World we Ordained you okay...

But Jean, you must first realize one thing. The enemy will come and tell you, “You aren’t good enough to have the anointing on your life.” He’ll tell you that because you are divorced or you didn’t come from a family in the ministry or you aren’t a perfect person, therefore you can’t experience the anointing. He’ll constantly say to you, “Don’t you remember when ... ?”

Jean don’t ever forget this one fact: The devil is a liar!

You will forever be remembered for this work for God. 

Heaven is proud of You. 

Believe inspired me to post this video my little boy took of me months ago dancing to I KNOW WHO I AM 

I was truly encouraged by Believe's response. It so happened today, I ended up in my spam inbox on Facebook. I went there by accident, and lo and behold there were dozens of messages that I had received from faithful blog readers whom I had inspired. I had never read these messages, and my heart melted and my tears welled up, because each message was deep and heartfelt, yet never read. I always try my best to respond to emails and Facebook messages, but for some reason, these special messages missed me. I have withheld the names for privacy, but to the beautiful people who sent me these messages, you may not have got a reply, but today you encouraged me in ways you may never know. And for the first time I felt moved to share with my readers your heartfelt messages to me...

 Hi Jean hope you are well.I have always read your blog and cant tell you how much I admire you and how much you inspire me.I was once married and bought a house,hoping to prepare for my children.But unfortunately nguva yaMwari yangaisati yakwana so I suffered 2 miscarriages at 21 weeks and some when I was a few weeks pregnant.Anywhere to cut the long story short,my husband left me nenyaya yembereko.Finally in 2011 I was blessed with twin girls called them Chipo and Grace .Up to now I still cant believe nyasha dzandakaitirwa naIshe, the whole world had written me ff and I cried when I was told at my first scan when they told me I was having twins.Unfortunately they were not tears of joy but of sadness, because I was thinking and asking God how and why he can give me twins when he knows exactly that I couldn't even carry one. All the best of luck at the trial of Masocha,I hope gives you and the other victims the justice you so deserve.
Jean I am a radio presenter @ VisionsFM radio. Read your blog. Such a powerful story, would you like to have an interview sometime and talk about your life story and writing career. Let me know and I will give you my contact detail
  I read with passion the story of your abuse at Agape Ministries. I am SORRY Sister to hear about all these abuses you suffered at Church of God which is suppose to cushion you and your family. I am really angry. I rally behind you. I am glad you come open. All the action you take is good. If anyone threatens you dont hesitate go to the Police station for protection. I hope you are also getting support from people in UK? I HAVE PUBLISHED YOUR STORY:http://shockingnews21.wordpress.com/2014/02/01/zimbabwean-bishop-arrested-in-the-uk/ What you did by coming open you will also help thousands others being abused in Churches especially in Zimbabwe. Keep in touch my Sister. I love your stand. Regards.  
Jean I just want to say that we love u and pray for you. From the moment I read your blog, I was hooked. You are such a talented beautiful soul. Many is a time that I have gone to bed at 4am reading your work. I am so proud of your bravery. Your Dad Never is my husbands brother and he talks about him every day. Go Jean!!! We all believe you and you should know that there are thousands of people who are praying for you!!

 Hi Jean i'm so sorry about what happened to you ...all i can say is you are such a strong lady don't let negetive comments get into you there lot of people out there that believe your story , i read it today on baba Jukwa's page
I am not a fan of long posts on facebook but I was standing in a long que at kfc and I happened to read your post on Faith, and that is the most powerful heartful post I have ever read, I could feel your heart pour out to her and I want to say thank you for the honest and loving advice . it moved me so much I forgot about my hunger at kfc and went home to look at your blog. Theres so much more to life with people like you around to give us hope and inspiration...THANK YOU
I don't know you personally but I have been following your story for sometime. Just want to say well done for the bravely and determination you have shown throughout what must have been a terribly ordeal for u. Congratulations and again, well done my dear. We need more women like you on this earth.  
  I follow your blog every now and then. Don't let conniving and manipulative persons silence your person. Well done for speaking for a thousand innocent silent souls who are taken advantage of by these people in the name of the bible
This one I read, but I love this message so much it could not miss this wall because it made me cry...

I saw a link on a facebook group.  Not sure what made me follow up the link and it was you announcing that you had a new blog as you were not  writing on the He was my daddy blog. I started going backwards  reading anything i could find about you.  I am in awe of your  strength, resilience, courage, perseverance against all odds. Equally important that you held on to your faith.  Most likely i would not have believed  your story  if I was not a survivor of abuse  myself.  Thats one of the many evils of many forms of abuse.  The experiences are just unbelievable.  Abuse is too outrageous to be   true, too weird, too unreal - the opposite of what we regard as norm.  Unlike you I do not have the courage to write about and share it with  others - maybe anonymously - one day - not sure.  Recollecting the events is still bad enough. I just what you to know that I am rooting for you.  I am possibly old  enough to be your mother but you have wisdom beyond you age. Best wishes as you move on with your life.  May it be  a productive  and happy one.

In Other News....

Summer is almost over, autumn will be here next month, but it feels like its autumn already. Its been a beautiful summer full of adventure, surprises, twists, turns, guilty verdicts and even weddings. It been eventful, and events continue to happen very fast. But a new season is nigh, just around the corner, its time to embrace the change. I change my hair with seasons, Jamaican locks is the hair of the season. Its cosy, light and long, gives me the warmth I need against the wind. I told you I am growing my natural hair for dreadlocks. I have already started locking Fadzi's hair. The Jamaican locks are a teaser of how I will look with  full grown dreadlocks when I finally unleash the African goddess in me! Be inspired...

Thursday, 13 August 2015

Im Not Mad, I'm Just A Woman

Today I feel inclined to share with my readers this poem I wrote last year when I was at my lowest in life. Sex Offender Walter Masocha had lied to his followers that the case was closed. Walter lied to his followers the Judge had ruled that Jean was mad, so Walter was no longer to be charged with sexual offences. As obnoxious as it was, as crazy as it sounds, unfortunately Agape Church believed the the lies of their Prophet. At the same time, with the instruction of Walter Masocha, my ex husband was putting me through a grueling custody battle claiming I  was too mad to look after my own children. In the midst of all the pain, I fought for my children. In the midst of all the pain, I fought for my own sanity. It had all started with a 999 phone-call in which they said I was mad. But 2 years later I have came out of it all, without even a clinical diagnoses of stress. When I wrote this poem, tears where streaming down my face, but my poem kept me going when I felt like giving up, because I knew I had never been mad, but just a woman with a passion....

Not Mad, Just A Woman 

You may know all my weaknesses
And even help create more than half of them
You may know what makes me cry
And even know all the things I hate
You may not like to hold my hand
In the lonely cold winter night
You may crush my weak soul with big biting words
And wound my fragile spirit with stings of hate
I may succumb and fall as you crush my mind
But even as I lie on the cold floor confused I will still whisper
I am not mad, I am just a woman
You may write my name on Facebook
And tell all your twitter followers
You may post my video on Vimeo
And tell the world all you know about me
She’s not just a woman, alas she’s mad
But like Maya Angelou
Out of the dust as a woman still I rise
Even in the dirt you smeared me with
Still I rise and stand up tall 
In all my weakness I will still look up and whisper
I am not mad, I am just a woman

By trapping my mind in a place of no return
I will show you something you never knew
I was simply born to be a woman
The woman in me is all the strength I ever need
The beauty in me shines like a diamond
If only you had chosen to understand me
Then you’d have been able to see
That I was never mad, but just a woman
With the JAW bone of a woman I fought for my right
To be just the woman I am
No matter how much you choose to refuse it
I am not mad, I am just a woman 

In Other News...

May you be inspired by my message on the power of being yourself and enlarging your territory, inspired by the woman who had a passion for her Savior. She wasn't mad, she was just woman who expressed herself the best way she knew how, by being herself. She left a legacy because she was original, she did not let anyone define her passion and freedom of expression ...be inspired

In Other Other News...

As my passion ignites, my territory expands...yes I am not mad, I am just a woman

Hear O Daughter and consider
Incline your ear and forget your people
And the king will greatly desire your beauty 
Since he is your lord bow to him
The people of Tyre will seek your favour with gifts 
The richest of the people, Psalm 45

Tuesday, 4 August 2015


As I celebrated my 33rd birthday last weekend with my beautiful family, I had the most amazing time in Doncaster where I was speaking and ministering. For me it all started in Doncaster 4 years ago, where my ex-husband held my hand tightly leading me into the massive Doncaster auditorium known as The Dome. Four years ago, Doncaster town would be filled with so many people wearing overalls that were so colorful heading towards the dome. I remember thinking maybe there was a building workshop ongoing in Doncaster. I had never seen Walter Masocha before, as I was led into the Dome, I hesitated, it was all strange to me, the spectacular frenzy, the hype, the exaggerated joy of the members, the bright overalls with odd writings, with the word CULT screaming in my head, but I didn't have much of a choice, I had to go in as a submissive wife. I laid my eyes on him for the first time, Walter Masocha, the mighty Prophet. Animated in character, bodyguards around him, jackets laid on the floor for him to walk on, people fighting for his sweaty handkerchiefs, men wiping his face, worship songs directed at him. Oh how mighty Walter Masocha was in the town of Doncaster. So mighty that the whole of Doncaster would know that he was in town, even hotels would be fully booked.  

Speaking in Doncaster...
Wearing my birthday present t-shirt from Nino...

But as this last weekend in Doncaster marked the beginning of my work as a speaker for JAW Ministries, inspiring and encouraging women who have been through sexual, domestic, emotional and spiritual abuse, I was truly humbled by the kind and warm reception I received in the very town where my painful journey began. This time I was not going to Doncaster to attend a huge International Agape Conference, as those conferences are no more, but I was simply going to share my story and speak boldly about how I overcame the Goliath. It was truly beautiful as well to watch Nino perform classic gospel opera and have him introduce me to a wonderful people who love God. The lowly will be exalted and the exalted brought low, Ezekiel 21:26, the Lord did speak indeed. I met amazing people and it was encouraging how other women were inspired by my story, as some of them had walked similar journeys themselves. It was in the midst of such humility and simplicity in Living Springs Church Doncaster I experienced that God will not share His glory with a man. 

At a private hotel in Doncaster spending time with my children...
He makes my feet like hinds feet, and makes me walk on my high places, Habakkuk 3:19
Well now I really understand why the mighty have fallen indeed,  as the bible say, "Oh how the mighty have fallen in battle! 1 Samuel 1:25" Doncaster will no longer be remembered for the epic spectacular  Agape Conferences, as the Prophet leader is now on the sex offender register awaiting another trial for three pending sex assault cases. Last week I received an email from a BBC reporter who is working on a documentary of Religion, Witchcraft and Child Sacrifices in relation to the Walter Masocha story. I was surprised but rather encouraged that BBC would want to cover a topic such as Witchcraft, as this is not a subject spoken of in the western world. 

But not talking about it doesn't mean witchcraft doesn't exist as understood by the African community even living in the western world. Speaking of witchcraft and Walter Masocha, according to my reliable sources,  Masocha was able to escape the jail by allegedly using occultist powers as a sorcerer, having obtained his powers from a sangoma using what he calls the "God of the trees" and "marine powers". Masocha allegedly uses trees as his source of powers, even his own mother confessing that he used to talk to trees when he was a young man to the extent of being diagnosed as mentally unstable. In most of his strange teachings Masocha refers to himself as a tree, even confessing to using leaves as money to get on a bus. He often gave his church members leaves and branches to keep and use as sources of power in obtaining good luck with immigration papers and employment.  On top of that, he allegedly keeps smalls bottles of "anointing oils" obtained from pythons which he apparently uses to cast spells on people. As it happened the week beginning his trial in April 2015, a young woman who was a member of Agape Church (name withheld) started "confessing" about Masocha's black power and human sacrifices in Agape explaining the many sudden unexplained deaths in Agape including that of Cathy Chigavazira who collapsed on a pulpit during an Agape church service whilst Judith Masocha was in Nigeria. The young lady attended an Agape wedding before the sentencing of Walter Masocha where he was making the remnant members of Agape Church sign a petition for him not to go to jail. 

Soon after the Agape wedding the young woman then went home and in a diabolic twist, she took  a sweeping broom and dust pan and went into the streets and started doing what she called "community service". During this disturbing episode, Walter Masocha is allegedly said to have gone in the middle of the night and poured "anointing oil" around Falkirk Sheriff Court three times in a ritual to reverse the jail term. As the young Agape woman was busy doing "community service" afterwards she wanted to go in front of a car and commit suicide. She was then immediately admitted to a psychiatric ward and received appropriate treatment. Two weeks after this incident, Sheriff McGowan then oddly ordered Walter Masocha to be put on the sex offender register for one year even though Agape Sex Offender Maxwell Nyakutya was put on sex offender register for 5 years for touching a girl's thigh on a bus and banned from ever teaching again in the UK, a far severe sentence in comparison to a man found guilty of several sex offences. Walter Masocha was also ordered to do 250 hours of community service. I remember one reporter saying something was definitely wrong with the Scottish Law as Walter Masocha's sentence was almost unheard of. Well I am just glad a BBC reporter is  compelled to do a story on Witchcraft and sacrifices incorporating Walter Masocha , as this maybe a reality the first world may have to at least acknowledge, given a lot of unexplained deaths in Agape Church, child sacrifices, naked oil massages, sweaty handkerchiefs and the controversial escape of a multiple sex offender from jail. That said, well another trial of sex offender Walter Masocha is coming up shortly, will he escape jail again the second time? Will there be more alleged midnight pouring of sacred oils around the court house to to cast spells on the next Sheriff? The story continues to unfold...

Sangoma power?? Walter Masocha in an undisclosed sangoma hut in Africa

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Wednesday, 29 July 2015

My Time With Silence And My Note To Sam Munodawafa's Wife

My Time With Silence

Its been a while since I've been on the blog, well it was a time for me to reflect and take some time out. In life even the good things need to be used in moderation, because the very good can easily become a curse. Facebook, Twitter, You Tube, Social Network are great modes of networking and communication, and yes amazing things can be accomplished on social network. Carriers and dreams have been built on social media, brands have been made on Facebook, Sex Offenders and false churches have been brought down by a blog However if not used with wisdom, the internet also has the power to destroy lives. Dreams have been broken, careers have been destroyed, homes have been shattered, and others are no longer preaching, all because of the Internet. So for me I needed to take 3 weeks away from the cyber world to reflect and listen to the inner voice and I can say without a doubt  that it was the most meaningful fulfilling time of my life where I learnt that in life sometimes we have to take a step back and let silence speak.

Well now that I am back, and talking of social media destroying lives, I can see that a lot of things has been happening whilst I was away, and these lot of the things happen to involve  a certain Zimbabwean Erotic Dancer/Stripper called Bev Sibanda who recently toured the UK. I understand her first tour to the UK is somehow directly connected to a man called Sam Munodawafa who found his life suddenly turned upside down overnight in what I believe is one of the most humiliating incidents ever to be captured on social media. The man appeared to have soiled his underwear during a very intimate shocking live performance with raunchy dancer/stripper Bev.  The soiled underwear of Sam Munodawafa was captured on video and has made headlines in the Zimbabwean UK Community.

What shocked me the most over this whole saga was that men, especially family men leave their homes (beautiful wives and children) to go and watch a stripper (fancy name erotic dancer) perform live sex acts on stage and call it performing and talent. I don't know if its just me but I found this to be perversion at its best. Oh and Nino did too by the way.  I felt like I was watching a scene out of Sodom and Gomorrah but with straight people starring. In one of her performances she appeared to be pleasuring herself as people watched in amazement and wonder. I have to say, I am for women's rights, I am for women's liberties and I am for change and all, I am a very open minded woman, but I'm also for women's dignity and the preservation of family values . As a Zimbabwean born woman to see my fellow sisters looking up to a woman who mimics self pleasuring and who gropes a married man's privates in public makes me rather sick to say the least, because it seems to me our society has become almost depraved of basic human morals and principles in the name of new age and being westernised, but I know even my English friends would find the Beverly show rather perplexing, as the odd ones often go to Amsterdam for that. People now call evil good and good evil. In her interview Bev herself did say most women in her profession of work she works with turn to prostitution as a way of living because stripping does not pay enough to make a living, which does say a lot about the line of work she does. There are many women who have jobs that don't pay enough, but they do not find themselves turning to prostitution. However in all fairness Bev did say she does earn enough so she does not need to be a prostitute. It is however still very sad, that most of her collegues are prostitutes. Whilst in other African countries women look up to inspirational talented women like Lupita Nyong'o, its sad to see my nation hail a raunchy dancer/stripper as the nation's most talented woman of the moment, I don't know what message that sends to our young girls.  And before anyone accuses me of judging, this is just my personal opinion on the matter, which I am entitled to.

However, in all this saga, my heart went out to Sam's wife as I can not even imagine the embarrassment, hurt and betrayal she must be feeling from her own husband, and I felt compelled to write her this open letter, which goes something like this...

Dear Sam Munodawafa's Wife

 I write this letter based solely on the information I have read on-line, as I do not personally know you or your husband. I am also writing to you based on your husband's open oline statement that he was in the process of apologizing to you for the hurt and embarrassment he has caused you. I also understand that you have four children with your husband Sam. I understand this incident is probably the most humiliating thing that has ever happened to you, especially in front of your family and friends. The same shame and reproach your husband is receiving goes into your spirit too, because you and him are one flesh. For what its worth, I know what it feels like to be publicly humiliated by your own husband, he posted a video of me on social media, he opened a blog where he wrote the most cruel things about me, he took my private emails to him and gave them to sex offender Walter Masocha to use as his defence against me in a highly publicized trial, but despite all this humiliation I still fought hard for my marriage, with no avail. I know what Sam did is different to what my ex husband did to me, but the point I'm trying to make to you is I know what public humiliation is,  and one created by the man who is supposed to love and care for you is extremely painful, whatever form it comes in.   But one thing I have learnt is, the storm always passes before you know it, but what you do during the storm marks what happens after the storm. 

So as I write to you, I say no there is no situation that beyond healing. Forget the world, forget what they are saying. Their laughter and mocking will soon vanish in thin air. You have four children, you have a home with your husband, he has been foolish yes and gone astray, and the bible even describes his situation in this warning...a warning I believe is for all married men out there who believe its harmless fun attending strip shows...

Lust not after her beauty in thine heart
Neither let her take thee with her eyelids
for by means of a whorish woman a man is brought to a piece of bread
and the adulteress will hunt for the precious life 
Proverbs 6:25-26
Now then, my sons, listen to me; pay attention to what I say.
Do not let your heart turn to her ways
or stray into her paths
Many are the victims she has brought down;
Her slain are a mighty throng 
Her house is a highway to the grave
Leading down to the chambers of death 
Proverbs 7:24-27

I believe your husband has learnt his lesson and this could be a turning point for both of you in your marriage, because the fact that he was there at that show shows that something was already not right in the marriage. Maybe he needed something like this to give up the strong drink, the playing away and be the responsible husband and father God wants him to be. For the sake of your children and the sacred  institution of marriage, please find it in your heart to forgive your husband and let your love and forgiveness heal both you and your husband, as hard as it may be. I recommend a film by one of my favourite actors Kirk Cameron called FIREPROOF, watch it together with your husband if possible. Every marriage is always worth for, I speak as a woman who lost my first marriage to a cult, even though I have moved on and am really happy, the journey was long and I would never wish divorce on any woman, especially a mother of four. Sam if you are reading this, please help your wife forgive you and maybe take her on holiday, just the two of you and let God lead. 

Wishing you the best in your marriage 


The Last Call

Well with all that said, there comes a time in your life when your calling becomes incredibly inevitable. Like a magnet, you cant run away from it. My time in reflection led me to my calling and purpose, the last call rather. I am mother, an artist, an author, a blogger, a women rights activist, a fashion designer in the making, but my biggest calling is being an Evangelist, as my life itself is a testimony of my encounter with Christ at the well.  I am like that woman at the well, who is now going out into the world and telling all of what God has done for me, and many shall come to Christ and see for themselves.  It will be my birthday on Saturday 1 August as I turn 33! I'm very excited. This birthday is very special to me, I will spend it with my beautiful children and Nino. But this birthday is more special to me because it marks a very new chapter in my life. I will be speaking at a worship Concert in Doncaster, alongside Nino who will be a guest performer. I'm doing what I have been called to do, doing the work of an Evangelist...

In Other News...

I am happy to announce that after a two year gruelling custody court case with my ex husband, it was a glorious day in Milton Keynes today as I finally won the battle, and its over!  My ex husband's continued association and alliance with Sex Offender Walter Masocha has barred him from ever having contact with his children,  and before the courts he chose to be associated with Walter Masocha. My children are mine, they are my babies,  I naturally birthed each one them, I nursed them, I watched their first steps, their first words was mama, they slept in my bosom till I weaned them, they are my children, and no one will ever take them away from me, and I mean no one. 

Thursday, 2 July 2015


My dear readers, I am so thrilled to announce that my clothing line JUST JEAN is now out! This is a vision I have carried since I was a child, making dolls and designing their clothes. I debut my clothing line with a sneak preview of whats to come. 


I love retro fashion and my vision is to blend vintage with African print, the African print being more subtle. My fashion sense was inspired from my childhood. I grew up in a small farming town of Karoi in Zimbabwe where I spent my time studying nature and the beauty of it. I am an old fashion kinda girl. I hate big cities and fast life. Take me to a country cottage with a big fireplace and chickens and goats outside, I would be the happiest woman on the planet. I chose to do my photo shoot in a place of tranquility I have grown to love and found healing and restoration. I love nature, animals and the outdoors, during my ordeal with sex offender Walter Masocha I spend a lot of time in this place jogging, having a picnic or just meditating. My clothes are not just about fashion, but inspiration. I want my vintage clothing to portray that.  Here is a sneak peak of my latest design, I mixed vintage lace with African print to make up this unique contemporary dress that can be worn on a day out, at work or even on a date to make subtle statement! I love this dress because it looks stylish and chick without giving out the trying too hard look! Effortlessly pretty. By the way my little 6 year old prince took these pictures, isn't he just talented! 

This happens to be my father's favorite photo. He blessed it and said my designs will go far.

 My Fashion Inspiration, my Mother 

My mother was always a drop dead gorgeous. Her fashion sense always inspired me from when I was a child. I love this photo of her holding me and my older brother in 1982 the year I was born. We lived in Mutare then. I would rock this vintage looking dress she was wearing today. Her Afro complemented her look so well, yes I am definitely my mother's child.


I just love the 80's Fashion! The bright colors and big hairdos. I have a cheeky wild sense of fashion too. I love making big statements, taking risks, looking different and being bold! Thats the other side of me that's not so traditional and country, lol. My clothing line will be like two sides of the coin, the country Jean and the bold Jean. Here is a sneak peak of my 80's inspired design. I was inspired to design this jumpsuit from my love of bold colors, of which orange happens to be my favorite color. Its all about color and boldness and daring to be different! I'm talking attitude, sexy, sassy and confidence. It takes a woman who knows who she is to unleash the confident goddess in her. You can wear this on a night out, a special event or just a hot summers day out! 

In Other News...

I'm so loving my blonde look and my Ghana cornrows. This look is so me....

In Other Other News...

Comments are now open again. I had closed comments because of my busy schedule did not have time to moderate them. However I have now appointed someone to moderate the comments for me, so feel free to comment!  I still appreciate you very much Team Jean and Keyboard Warriors please bear with me as I transition into this new chapter of my life. God bless you all and happy July. Live, Love and Laugh. Life is for living, embrace it and enjoy! 

Wednesday, 24 June 2015

Weekend Away In Skelmersdale, Entering A New Chapter In My Life

Last weekend my family and I took a much needed vacation to our old hometown Skelmersdale, the place I lived for 10 years of my 15 years in the UK. It was the town where I bought my first property. The town where I lived as a young married wife and mother. The place where I built my home and laid the foundation of my life as a young adult. Until, of course a self styled Prophet called Walter Masocha came into my life and turned everything upside down. His cruelty and life threatening abuse he subjected me to led me to lose my marriage and house. 

Its been over a year since I was evicted from my 3 bedroom detached house and made homeless. Well, last weekend marked a new chapter in my life. I was able to go back to Skelmesdale and face my past. I built an alter as a memorial and remembrance of how far the Lord has taken me. I was able to go back into the park where I spent a lot of my time praying and meditating. We went on my favourite hill where we met a musician called Robert who was singing a song called "Do not forget" . Nino and Robert suddenly connected, and before we knew it, there was a sweet symphony in Skelmersdale. A sound of music. Almost like a mini concert on a hill on the beautiful grass. The sun was setting and Robert started singing love songs for us. It was surreal, the joy I felt. As soon as Robert finished singing, suddenly there were soft showers of rain, mnnn the latter rain, only lasting a few minutes, and I never seen such a beautiful sunset. We started running down the hill, and  behold as we got downhill, right in front of us, the most beautiful rainbow appeared. You see, I had prayed and said "God I know you really are with me, show me a sign, a rainbow, I need a sign that you are going to restore everything I lost in Agape For All Nations Cult". It was one of the most magical moments of my life, and I felt as though the Lord was saying to me, you lost your house and your marriage, but its time to let go of the past, and everything you lost I will restore a million fold. 

From there we were able to walk past the house we lost, it looked dark and deserted. No longer the beautiful family home we lived in for 10 years. I told my family we are crossing over to a new life. The peace and joy we had was just out of this world. After the weekend when I got home, an Agape youth member (yes an Agape youth member) sent me the song by Damita called No Looking Back. 

I am leaving this place now,

letting go of all my fears,

saying good-bye to the memory I hold dear
I can finally breath again,
its a new day fair well past,
as I close this chapter I set free at last
(oh! am saying)

I made up my mind-theres no turning back

the past is behind me-theres no looking back

I'm looking forward not behind
I've made a desicion-to give you my life
and no looking back and its and no looking back and there no looking back

Every step I take is new,

I found courage to go on,

though its rough sometime I still have to be strong
I may have to walk alone,
but the One who live inside,
me is always there to comfort and to guide and i want to say

I made up my mind-theres no turning back-the past is behind me-theres no looking back-I'm looking forward not behind- I've made a desicion- I give you my life

We stayed in the beautiful village of Parbold in a private family hotel were we were treated like royalty 

And there was a wedding 
And the beautiful walk in the village
The rainbow...

With Robert after he sang beautiful love songs for us

This park always meant a lot to my family 

Going Back Memory Lane 

The House I lost through Agape 

It is no longer the family home it was to us...time to say good-buy to my old life. I look forward to purchasing my new house in this new chapter of my life

In Other News

I am getting comments from an Ex Agape Member who is asking me why I am not longer blogging about Agape and Walter Masocha saying I am letting down Key Board Warriors because they want to talk about Walter Masocha. I am sorry that you strongly feel this way. But I also have a life outside this blog and outside of the Walter Masocha case. I have to look after myself and my family. I have bills to pay and a life to live. I am launching my career and moving on with my life I can not remain stuck in the Walter Masocha case for the rest of my life. Walter Masocha has streets to clean, bins to empty, public toilets to mop and other sex court cases to attend, I have a TV show to launch and visions to fulfil.  I spent the last two years of my life on the battlefield that almost cost me my life. Everything in life has a season, and for me I am now in a new chapter and season. I continue to support Victims of Walter Masocha and work closely with women needing support and help through JAW, women who have been abused will always be my greatest priority. 

In Other Other News 

I am very excited as all my designs are finally in the house. I worked hard on this project and keep tuned in for an explosive launch of my clothing line. Excited! Yes gore rino muchadzidza zvakawanda indeed!